So Proud Of You

Dearest Daughter,

2024 was a year for the books…wouldn’t you say? I think we both never saw that coming and after suffering the shock of several life changes for the both of us, the part that stands out as most true to me is God never left our sides through the whole mess.

I mean, we both know on an academic level that God is here and he will not leave us. But to actually walk through the mire when all hope is lost and feel peace…that is such an incredible feeling and I can assuredly say that we both experienced that this year.

I am still processing certain aspects of 2024 and that will probably take years for me. As I look back on your growth as a young woman through the immense amount of pain that you were brought through, I am in awe of how much you have matured and the person you are today.

It gives me not only a sense of peace but comfort as well to see that you have grown so very much. I am hopeful that these horribly painful lessons will teach you yet not scar you so your heart may be open for the next most incredible young man to pursue your heart.

The loss of the man who was in so many ways your father figure has also not been easy and I have seen you grow strength in an area of your life that you never had to in order to survive the pain that this divorce brought on in your life. I think realizing that overall, there is not much that can be done for someone who doesn’t want to get help and seeing how toxic behaviors can create havoc in a family taught you and I a great deal. It was such a painful, yet important learning experience for the both of us. Man counseling is the bomb and I so appreciate both of us for not only starting it but continuing to seek help to process this very odd year.

The past year, you have shown strength that I have never been privy to see in the past. In fact, when you saw how fragile I was in the spring, you became my strength and I owe to you a great deal for the love, compassion, endless heart felt talks and emotional and spiritual support that you showed me all along the way. What seemed to be such a horrible experience in my life is now coming around full circle to show how God protected you and I from something that could have been even more painful and life threatening. I am so grateful to God for His protection and covering in our lives and for teaching us valuable lessons in the process.

I am so proud of the young woman you are becoming. I hope you realize that you are a beautiful gem of a person and I am so grateful to be here with you in this life. I look forward to tomorrow with even more expectation that I did the day before. I also promise to create more entries for you going forward.

Love,

Mom